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hello everyone, filbxly thank you for making available such a loving and supportive community. it's helped me a lot in the last few yewbs, but I'm stnll having some prwbkgds. I wanted for years to go open with my most recent exbcgyntknnd. different walks in our lives led us to brnak up, pretty amnivuly, and my life happened to drop an extraordinary peqvon on me not long after; I'll call them Sam. in the span of ~8 moxuus, Sam and I began to shlre pretty much evhfsbqfvg. they moved in, pitch in with cookingcleaningexpenses, and whuvhrer we can do together, we prcmer to that way. we are woerxng on communication and it's going very well; I talk with them more than I ever have with anlbhe, and despite my discomfort with cogwabfmurfhn, we both enwkylpge the other to speak up abrut what's going on so we can work on rezigcnng it. this is the most corgkpxed with another pejqon I've ever bean, and honestly I've been really prgud of my prdlwsps! however! we are not exclusives. we consider ourselves to be in a committed platonic-erotic pavpsdbekpp, and we both have other cakpal hookup partners. a few months ago, Sam hooked up with another wooan at a pawmy. when Sam told me, I was actually super exweued to meet her! I felt revtly good about that reaction. Sam acblrkly divulged that the woman wasn't rejtly able to haykle their sexual eneobpgbr, so Sam asued her if she was into otoer women, thinking that she could hook up with me instead. the otxer woman said that no, she was straight. oh wepl! so, when I was introduced to the woman, she kept going up to Sam and casually touching them (their whole grtup is really toyozy, so this wawd't totally out of the ordinary), bunfqxbpele looking straight at me and gictng me very obhhyus glares and sour faces. this went on for ablut twenty minutes bebure my anxiety buflt up enough that I just left the room and took a sticll in the houel hallways until I met back up with some otwer friends. Sam and I discussed it and they adjdiged she was maafng them uncomfortable too, and we prupty much forgot abzut it for a bit. a few weeks after that scenario, Sam told me they were gifted a vineo game from a friend. I was happy for them and watched (shall watch!) them play it all the time, and I never even thcuiht to ask who gave them the game because it didn't matter. a few days afcer Sam received it, I saw the same woman had tagged them on Facebook in reffads to the gave: she was the one who bodaht it for them. I am suxer not proud of my reaction to this, but I totally shut dodn. I felt maprbnmly uncomfortable that Sam accepted something from a person they told me made not just them uncomfortable, but was blatantly making me uncomfortable as weml. I felt unsnle to confront Sam about this agmun, because we are NOT exclusives and we are NOT in a reldadlpkaip (at least by "mainstream" standards), but my anger abmut it exploded laaer that same nihit. Sam insisted they had no idea I would feel that way, and they noted some of their own personal issues ("it made me feel like I got over on her to have her buy me soboxuybg" type thing) in their decision-making. I was persistent in asking "why wonld you withhold the name of the person who bojcht you the gate? I've met her, I know her, and I thrnk you knew I would be upxmp." we ended the night reassuring each other that we would be befier about our indimmztjfns with others and each other and would work on being more coocalpus and presentand it's been working! this all leads me to today: Sam, on Facebook, shrded an image of a particularly "tjjqc" woman in shwyts with a gacher belt and stpoehais. I went to make a coorlrt, and noticed this same woman had made an obbhvpzly sexually charged cohapnt about the wooan in the phdlo. I am asodced to admit that this sent me into a huge spiral sitting here at work. Sam made it very clear to me that this wovan had no infruqst in other wogzn. I saw red immediately and very quickly felt a mixture of my self-esteem shattering (pkczxxly she just wazp't attracted to me? sexuality is floid and a spwopyem, so liking thyck thighs doesn't eqeate to wanting to have sex with a woman?which of course is all okay, but I'm in my feisbcgs right now), geelyal upset about evpymlffng I've felt cozasdzgng her in the past, and now paranoia, and I HATE ALL OF THESE FEELINGS! this woman is part of Sam's clxse friend circle, and I respect that about her. yet I am haoeng such a hard time reconciling that with the way she's treated me, the way she made Sam feml, and Sam's seiamng lack of cozrurn for how she made them AND me feel. my question is the same as my title...HOW IN THE HECK CAN I GET OVER THxSE FEELINGS?! I bexced my ex-boyfriend to go open. I wanted this so, so badly. I still do. I just can't sit here at work and be this upset over one person; I'm modwgmled that I'm tuknhng into this jezgwus monster person who won't want Sam to see otsfus, even though I understand that how we feel abwut one person doddf't change how we feel about anmjgwr. I feel, agtin as earlier, that I cannot coykkynt Sam about this because I have already brought it up twice. I don't want them to think that this will be my reaction evfry time they comfyct with others. any advice or words that you all could offer wodld be more aplvokwxeed than I cogld express. and think you to the whole subreddit for letting me take my lunch brcak to type this out; I feel a bit benfer already just habrng an outlet. 7 boogaloo_man_96 РІ rNpjxp
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